Eight things you may not have known about me:

I know that I have already shared a lot lately. I do not know if you want to know more about me, but I want to light on a few happier things tonight. My number is Eight:

1.)   I have an unshakable testimony of my Father in heaven’s Love for me. He has been there for me my whole life and I am most grateful for His presence and kindness as I barrel down the path back to Him. I am not perfect… in fact I am a lot worse than I desire to be. But I know that I can repent and find my way back to Him too. I work daily on trying to reach my true potential: His ever gracious and loving daughter.

2.)  I believe with all who I am to my very soul that each of you, every last one, is a precious princess/prince and deserve the highest praises. I look up to you constantly and know each of you is more special than words can express. You are all… better than me in my little world. Especially that homeless man on the corner. When asked why he was homeless, he said that staying anywhere too long felt like he was in a prison and he wanted the choice of being free. I admire him because he is doing what makes him happy.

3.)   This in turn makes me ever-so-very-badly shy. I may have known you for years and still become shy in your presence. You could be a roommate whom I would have seen every day, and suddenly I don’t know where to put my hands and start sitting up a little straighter when you come near. I may suddenly avoid your gaze because I am no worthy of looking you in the eye. I try not to get so… nervous, but I do know that your worth is higher than mine. You are an amazing person and deserving of all the love my Father in Heaven has asked me to have for you. Whether you have thrown me away like last week’s garbage or envelope me in a lovely hug, you are heirs to a kingdom one can only dream about and worthy of my love for you. When I am sincere in anything I say to you, I try to add a smile. If there is no smile, I may be covering pain :P You are forewarned lol HUGS!

4.)   I am empathetic. I not only sympathize with you, but I have an amazing gift to understand and put myself in your shoes. You say I don’t understand and never could… My spiritual gift gives me the empathy to KNOW EXACTLY how you are hurting or feeling.

When I am using my gift you would be amazed at the things that I suddenly know about you. It may sound a little strange to you… but I promise, I understand. I truly really do and you cannot convince me otherwise. It is a sacred gift from my Father in Heaven and is at my disposal if only to prove my love for you in using it. I see you in ways you wouldn’t imagine anyone seeing in you. And you are special more than you can imagine.

On a darker note… I think I understand Hitler and the terrorists that hit us on 9/11. I may empathize their feelings and understand what led them to it, but, and in an effort not to look so awful, please know that I do NOT condone such actions ever!!!! Hurting people for ANY reason is unethical and evil! I strive hourly to make sure that I do not hurt anyone, but fail more often than I wish to admit unfortunately. Words can be so powerfully abrasive, especially sometimes when they’re not used righteously.

5.)   I want ever so very much to do something that will change the world for the better. Even just my little part of it. I have several ideas in which I’ve thought out to begin this, but I haven’t acted on them other than to draw them up.

A) One idea is to set up an employment agency unlike anything ever seen.

I want to set up a place where people can come and get workshops in their particular job desires. These workshops would include teaching acceptable public behavior and speech, proper work behavior and speech, what not to say and curbing foul words before they escape in moments of stress, general well being mentally and physically, how to be successful without being corrupt, and other ‘how to’ suggestions to not only keep a job, but for success with flying colors.

After they go through the workshops to a satisfactory enough level, they will be set up with an expert application and resume creator to tailor a personal resume for them.
Afterwards that resume will be sent out to worthy businesses that are looking for new employees with a personal recommendation from my agency.

Once the resume is answered and an interview is set up, the individual will be given 7 outfits from my agency:
3 everyday work outfits
2 interview worthy and other occasions dressup outfits for when they’re needed
1 full tux or ballgown worthy of company parties and formal gatherings.
1 modest workout outfit, to encourage a good fitness regimen

After six months in their new job, if they like it and are making more than enough to get by on, I will nicely ask for a donation for my cause and even recommend a small monthly payment option to be set up. This will be optional of course.
If they decline, then after a year I will again ask for contributions for my cause and for the various child centers my agency will create for those single parents, or anyone truly needing the service. This will also be an optional donation. I will continue asking for donations every year they stay at the job procured for them by my agency. Yes it is optional to donate, and I’m sure I will become annoying, but we cannot survive on sheer will alone ;) I have looked into that! lol

B) I would love to open a soup kitchen. I know I have no physical strength to speak of, but if I can find a tall enough, comfortable enough stool, I will so be in the serving line! I would ask for volunteers to help me in the receiving and cooking ends. I could even hire someone to seek out contributions and do some of that myself. But my favorite place would be serving people their meals… just so I know I made a difference and people are more comfortable would mean so much to me. Perhaps the soup kitchen could be next door to the agency? Hehe

C) My favorite option to change the world is my hotel. If I can get it started then perhaps the other two ideas can be supported by the hotel’s income alone. I know that that will be a while. I want it in Canada (I picked out the perfect mountain already with a great flat spot halfway up with amazing views!!!), but will be happy anywhere that is snows habitually every year in the mountains.

I want my bed-and-breakfast/Inn/Hotel to be called “Off the beaten path”. It will be completely self sufficient; making its own purified water from the rainfall and nearby lake and river, making its own electricity with sun solar panels, well made double windmills, and the river’s swift water flow. The extra power will be stored in many enormous energy saving batteries or the like. It will have the capability to purify, use, and store several thousands of gallons of water a day. It will have its own septic tanks away from the hotel full of organically decomposing bacteria so the hotel does not harm the floral and fauna life nearby.

There will be workshops inside that will help people learn how to can their favorite foods and prepare other food storage items to last as long as possible. Another workshop will teach them how to conserve water safely, and create a self-sufficient dwelling place off the grid for themselves (like the hotel). There will be a gun workshop with safety tips and gun handling protocol and advice on how to wear it and other things for safety and control. At the end of shooting practice, they will be given the opportunity to register and buy a gun right afterwards.

If they stay with us they automatically get a discount for the workshop of their choice. The prices will be based on how much the cost is to let them attend one (such as replacing bullets, canning items and food, plus the time the teacher spent teaching, they will be paid to teach etc etc.)

This would be my number one dream to see come to pass and be a part of. I would set aside a few rooms on the floor under the ballroom for people who have nowhere to go or have problems finding rooms because of price. All this tying in to my desire to serve everyone in some way.

Inside the Inn make sure to visit Serenity’s Spa and Kyra’s Kitchen, a wonderful spa with every amenity and a formal restaurant created to tantalize your taste-buds.

D) Another thing I would like to be part of setting up, is creating a Kimber-Academy where I live. If you don’t know what I am talking about, please look it up online. It is a great school in Arizona that is exactly what I want for my children. I would even extend its capabilities to teach students all the way up to graduation senior year. School should not be so long and these public schools are falling to pot.

In Kimber academy teachers could have that second job they desire, kids could have more parent time and home learning, and they develop a better imaginative and cognitive thinking processes than in public school.
It also gives the kids attending the opportunity to be raised around children who have like morals and kinder dispositions. They teach children to love, care and take care of everyone, instead of hate or despise or be jealous of people.

It is not a ‘dog eat dog world’, that is just one man’s perception taught at public schools. The world is what you create and I want to create and raise youngsters who share love, take care of others, live honestly, and take initiation for themselves to be good upright individuals in society.

 Create your own bubble. With our Father in Heaven’s good grace and guidance that bubble will remain unbroken and unpolluted. Strive to do good and surround yourself with good all the time. YOU can change how YOUR day went by believing in goodness, and taking life with a giggle instead of a slew of bad words.

We all mess up, it’s time to start teaching it is okay as long as we try harder not to next time. And if again you fall, again pick yourself up. Repent each time and make a promise not to again. Won’t mean you won’t mess up yet again, but it will mean you are still working to be His child. Once we stop working on our life, life stops working for us.

I would love to enact and create and start up all of these ideas. It would mean everything to me to see goodness growing like that.

6.)  I love big swirly skirts, beautiful gloves, and the grace befitting a Lady with the kindness of an angel. I try to emulate a lady in all that I do. And let me tell you… I fail miserably! But I can always start over the next day and that helps to remember that. If I could be as precious as a princess, going around with the service of a knight in shining armor, and wield the love of my Savior in all I do, then I would be happy. That would be the person I desire to be every day and try to achieve in all I do in every way. Grace is so sadly an overlooked underused word these days….

In order to be one’s self and not a failure of the world, I like to encourage people to speak their minds. However I ask them to speak their minds in as non-offensive a way as possible so that their guardian angels don’t get offended ;) There is a difference between being open and forthright, and crude, vulgar, and crass in your expressions. We can all be a little better here… I am working on it.

P.S.: I get cold easily and hot easily. Thanks to the eds I am very temperature sensitive. Skirts keep me warm and regulate a comfortable temperature for my legs/knees. Gloves are beautiful to me too. My fingers, toes, and lips turn blue in the middle of the summer at temperatures far above 100 degrees. Gloves, socks, shoes, and lipstick help make me look “alive”.

P.P.S. I wouldn’t feel as silly wearing all my “get-up” if people wouldn’t look at me whenever I come into their visual or walk in a room. I am VERY tall and I know that is the real reason they look: because there is so much to look at! It would be nicer if I didn’t stand out so much, it is what it is and I try to smile for them… when my shyness doesn’t drive me to bashfulness and darting eyes.

7.)   “Everything in its place and a place for everything.” I love organizing. This goes with decorations. I love decorating; both permanent rooms and places for one-day parties. I am always happy to dive into a new purse and sort my belongings into it. Or give me a room and say, “I want this” and I will be not only be happy but thrilled! Recently I have been doing poster-boards sort of things and making some nice ‘reusable’ poster boards for my ward. I think in another life I must have been an awesome room designer!!! (I am not sure if I believe in other lives... But on some days I do :P When it suits me? That sounds terrible lol)

8.)  Last but certainly not least:

I love you.

Three words in their simplest form and strung together to convey in the smallest way possible my immense and sincerely deep and honest feelings for you as a person who has ever admitted that you have met me. There is no way to explain how I feel for you except in these words… do not take them lightly as you have in the past:

“I. Love. You.”

I love each and every one of you. It may have been a few hours since we last talked/chatted/messaged/called/hungout/texted/asked over, but I still know who you are, and my love does not grow distant when we do physically. Many people cannot understand me when I say “I love you”. Some think I may have meant, “You are awesome and fun to be with”. Others think I simply don’t know what that word means and over-use it too much. Some get offended when they believe that is the case.

Let me tell you, you are all wrong in this. Completely, laughable almost but not, W-R-O-N-G.

Whether you believe that I on some level love you, or whether you believe that I over-use this sentence, you are wrong. My love for you is ever so very much more than those three little words. I shall try to light upon a few meanings here.

First, I am pointing out that Love can be for many different reasons. And there are many different kinds of love. But here now I tell you: I love you. I do NOT mean ‘I like you’. Many of you I do also like, but ‘I love you’ is a whole different connotation and feeling to me.

When I say “I love you” I mean it from the center of who I am. My desire to show love for you is written in my very makeup. It is what makes my soul. Expressing my Love is the desire to share my awe of who you are to me with you. I very much desire to share my love for you in order to let you know you are cared for, thought of often, remembered constantly, and give me endearing thoughts when my mind alights on even just your name. When I say “I love you” it means I wish you to know my exact feelings in regard to YOU as a sentient being in this world. When I tell you “I love you” I mean to help cheer you up from whatever uncomfortable feeling you may have and wipe it away because you are too amazing to have to pass through such travail. When I tell you “I love you” it comes as a sincere desire for you to be made light and to know that you are special to me.

“I love you” means that I know who you are and that, even though we haven’t spoken in decades, I still feel your special and very personal power and warmth and am grateful for our experience together. Everyone’s power is different, I do truly feel it. Each of you add something personal to the power you radiate and no one else can even pretend to have your special effect on me. Another reason that my love for you is special and unique and tailored to you: it is a reflection of the awesomeness you possess and radiate yourself. I love you for… radiating you.

I love that no matter how long it has been since our last chat that you still open your arms to me wide and give me that hug as if I never left. Time does not color the love I have for you in any way. Experience with you however is a different story as my love for you deepens with each time we are together or chatting.

I love you means that I care. Maybe once upon a time you may have seriously hurt me. I love you, and it matters not if you were mad at me or viciously mean to me once upon a time for whatever reason. I bounce pretty well ;) My heart feels what it feels. Know that I am still on your side if/when you need it or ask. I love you means that if it has been a while, I will still be here with that hug. I still care. I still want you happy, I still pray for the best for you. I still worry when you are sad/sick/upset/hurt.

I love you and I care about you. I may not have all the words I mean because the English language does not have them in its arsenal, but for whatever its worth, I do love you. I love you because… I love you; I just do.

“I love you” is also an invitation TO you that if you EVER need anything I am here. Ask and I will do what is in my power. Please accept when something is NOT in my power, but understand that that does not mean my love for you has diminished in any way. I still love you and offer what I can with the sincerest desire to serve you and make you happy; and with the humblest countenance in my serving.

This is part of the true love of Christ.

I only wish to someday emulate ALL that encompasses such love. I know that I lack the grace to bear my life’s difficulties in a way to honor and give glory to my Father in Heaven. I am learning though and believe I will master what He has put before me every day that I do what He would have had me do.

Goodnight all. I hope you enjoyed learning more about me. Fun game! I enjoyed seeing everyone’s posts on FB and am grateful to be let in to what makes your life unique… and I love you for it.

Next time I tell you how much you mean too me, that I love you, please know that it was from a place deeper in my heart than the light happy notes in my tone can convey.

Be good to each other.

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